It’s almost 20 weeks now, since I’ve been in a society with
loving people….
And by that, I mean school and hostel.
I loved being in school and living in a hostel for 5 years,
if you don’t include the exam periods and having to face my plunging grades.
There’s always so much fun everywhere I go.
I know it’s because I have my friends
around…
I’ve been living with all of them under the same roof for 5
whole years. During those precious, unforgettable years, never have I realized
how important it was for me.
It still is.
Sitting here at home, doing nothing but house chores, drowning
myself in the sea of dramas and movies, I knew that something was missing.
Something that could make these 20 weeks less boring, was
missing.
You know when you feel bored and tired of school, wanting
to go home, watch movies, goof around and just stuff yourself with junk food?
And now when you’re doing those exact things, suddenly it just turned out to be…boring.
Writing this, right now, I know that feeling. And I realized
it turned out that way because when you were actually picturing the fun time at
home, you pictured it with your friends in it.
That was it. That’s what was missing. Friends…!
At first I didn’t realize it. But after thinking about it
for so long, I admit, that there was that one time when I actually did picture
it that way.
But it wasn’t at home. It was at the hostel.
Yes, that 4-stories TM Tower in Taman Melati.
I actually imagined, that we were all there, on a long
holiday where we could just go hang out without the warden’s permission, come
back late and just goof off. And in the morning, we could spend hours and hours
just lying on the bed, playing those stupid games we invented, telling past
time stories while eating snacks we gathered by the bedside and laugh about
every little thing that sometimes, wasn’t even funny…
Can you picture that? Picture it like you see it in movies,
all dreamy and awesome at the same time.
If I could, I would capture and then develop those moments
into real pictures and
hang them on my bedroom wall, with the most mesmerising
frame I could find, so it would catch everyone’s eye as soon as they walk in.
If I could, I really would do it.
You don’t know how much it matters to me. Sometimes, I even
think that my friends can give me much more life lessons that those school
textbooks.
Remember I said ‘sometimes’. Well how could I not?
My friends taught me so many things that I can never
forget, not ever.
Living with them for so long, I opened my heart and mind to a
point I never thought it would ever reach…! They changed me.
I may not be ‘that’ much better than before on the outside, but if you could see me inside, this mask of flesh
and blood taken away, you could say that my soul has turned itself into a
canvas of a beautiful painting with so many bright and fun colours to see.
And looking at that canvas, that very moment, I swear I can
say that those strokes of colours were infinite.
That, was how much they have changed me.
Right now, I don’t know how to end this post… because all
of those joyful feelings
I had when I was writing before, suddenly transformed itself
into a really dull feeling of regret…
Regret that I didn’t do my best, my very, very best to appreciate
my friends.. Regret that I didn’t spend those special golden moments with all
my heart… Regret that I wished for school to be over so so so very soon…
But like they say, it’s no use crying over spilt milk.
I was too slow and too stupid back then.
That’s why during these 20 weeks, whenever you ex-TM Tower
girls asks me to hang out or go shopping with you guys, I would always try my
best to come and be as lively as I can so that I wouldn’t miss out a thing.
I’m sorry all I could ever do to tell you girls how much I love you and appreciate you is by writing down another boring post on my boring blog.
It’s the only thing I’m good at, remember? Writing.
And…this
is the only space where I can write as freely as I want.
AND(!!!)…this is the
only thing that I can offer you without ever moving an inch from where my butt
is glued to all day.
So that’s it for now.
If I would have to write more, I don’t think I can stop
anymore.
You see, my friends are somewhat unpredictable and wittily crazy, so I
can never just stop writing about them with a single post.
But this single post is just to generally express my
appreciation towards them. Also to tell them how much I miss them all.
Okay, so maybe they’ve known that I miss them, but this is
just to lay them out so you, reader, -which will be most of my friends- can
understand why am I writing a seriously long and boring post.
Yes, it is just to say that I miss them. I miss you. Yeah,
you.
You girls, the ex-TM Tower residents.
If only we could all meet up again,
and I hope that time, EVERYONE would be there. Not a single soul left behind.
I do hope you enjoyed reading this post, as well as enjoy
watching your faces featured on my blog –if you are in the pictures-.
I’ll see you all soon, okay?
